Quicksand

Quicksand.

And chloroform.

And falling through a branches trap,

into a giant pit. Hauled

up by a net that right upon my path was set,

and let's not forget the constant threat

of only finding out after my abduction

that I was being replaced by my evil twin,

of whom I had never heard.

The fear of cars with brakes tampered;

my arch-nemesis balancing out of sight 

above the stage performance of my life,

ready to cut the rope holding up the batten,

and then slink away after I was flattened;

Being the one who would have to choose

to snip the red wire or the blue,

before the device could explode.

How I dreaded rabies, which particularly scared me,

and poisoning with no sign of antidote.

Then I grew up and realistic, and now I know that the statistics

do not favour plots of nineteen-eighties' shows.

I wish that I could feel free to expect our women's safety,

and that quicksand was what we dreaded most.

(RIP Ashling Murphy, and all the other women).

Any Of Us

When the children cannot be together

who will run and play?

When they cannot share their secrets

who will keep them safe?

When there are wishes, dreams, and aims

who will push us forth?

When all is lost in sheer despair

who will pull us close?

Are any of us shielded

if some remain exposed?

If safety can be wielded

everyone should get a go.

If our hearts can't yield to fair appeals;

if our consciences defy,

then we must leave our children grieve

the world that we let die.

When our senses lose all purpose

will we fall like dominoes?

When the climate deems us surplus

who will smell the snow?

Velvet Paws

Wouldn't we all have velvet paws

if we lived like the cat?

Wouldn't we stretch and downward dog

outside the future and the past.

Wouldn't we split our time evenly;

sleeping, playing, eating, cleaning.

And deal with the unforseen

in the moment of its meaning.

We would wake to fascination

that yet another day appears,

strut with appreciation

that again we have no pain or fear.

We would expect support and comfort,

We would stretch and downward dog.

We would look after ourselves first,

we would all have velvet paws.

Rita's Silver Box

Between the contents of the box

that looked contagious,
and Billy's headstone shots

and printed pages,

I learned of William Cronin's

second marriage,

of children dying in

early years who did not manage

to be recorded.

Baby Patrick and tiny Ned

among other ancestors

now not related,

except in memory and retelling.

Kate, of Kate of Johanna,

a railwayman's wife,

passed The Famine and O'Donovan-Rossa

but died of typhoid

back in Milleennagun.

The roadside Patrick McCarthys,

connected by a woman

certainly walking and running on empty

called Honest Mary Riordan.

A flurry of descendants

to reward her steely labours,

and wives to curb and enhance

the paternal inclinations,

like Auntie Sheila.

Our grandmother knew

that photo had to be taken.

She would die too soon

and most of us would be too late.

She gave us Seán to tell the tales,

knowing full well he would guard the secrets,

until years of tiny details 

had been wrung out of certificates.

He did her proud.

(Two of my cousins and I have been putting our family tree together. One cousin, Cath Walsh, is the twin of the subject of a poem I wrote in 2018, Michael Walsh's Shoes. 

When we had gone as far as we could go with the information we had, there was a phonecall of revelation from our uncle, Seán, to flesh out the names and dates. And Cath, in their family's poetic way, said, "After years of tiny details wrung out of certificates".

The Auntie Sheila mentioned was our grandaunt. It seems that our grandfather always said he was the youngest of thirteen children. Considering the infant mortality rate he may well have been. 

However, we have also heard that he believed there had been another child, Ned, born after him. Auntie Sheila, married to our grandfather's brother, always said, matter-of-factly, "they were a family of seven").

For These Days

Though our cat lives a life I can only dream of

there is a certain steady freedom with his reign.

No killing sprees on the flocks of local sheep or

the barking that accompanies the postman every day.

The cat is pristine and insists on an access-all-areas

cycle of cleaning that he must repeat ad nauseum.

He makes a point of ridding his fur of the human rub

that he claims, by force, as and when it is required.

We can drive away without a thought for our cub,

and return to find him safe and well and dry.

But the dog. I miss having a dog so much.

It is a parcel of preparation and plotting,

and flea-and-tick treatments that don't work.

And training, and grooming and washing

to no actual purpose.

Now walks to the woods are the ways of my daughters 

and I feel they must

have a pet for adventures.

Frances

Adjustable paper guide, blackberry picking,

Barry's Tea and red wine, neighbours carol singing.

October winds and matchstalk men, a yellow Renault five,

Mossie the old milkman, and a pocket full of rye. 

Orange kitchen cupboards, cod liver oil,

potatoes for the next day, peelings for the soil.

The kettle's always boiling, jars crammed full,

tomato plants are spoiling, salt in handfuls.

A corner full of beehives, mint sauce and chops,

a black rabbit on the driveway, six crowing cocks.

Guitar frets and card decks, bunged airlocks,

rows of earthed strawberry beds, the oven drying damp socks.

Carbon copy paper sheets, headscarves in the rain,

line-space lever, sink full of ware again.

A little mouse with clogs on, script deadlines,

borage and parsley... sage, rosemary and thyme.

Frances filled forms,

spell-checked,

won awards,

typeset.

She pulled letters from scrawls,

print from shorthand;

all while a small child crawled

on to her lap.

Each submission

meant typing up twice;

no copiers or printers,

just mornings and nights.

I got my fingers stuck between those keys, 

until the electric typewriter muffled their clacks. 

And then a stream of clunky PCs

were replaced by laptops that went fast, fast, fast. 

The technology improved in leaps

of too much change at too much speed.

Arnica and aconite just when you think 

you can make both ends meet, margin release.

(On 30/08/2021 my mother, Frances O'Keeffe, passed away. She was 72 years old. She had been very sick for a very long time, really since 1998, but with long periods of wellness between then and 2010. And she hadn't been herself for years. I am one of six children, she is a huge loss to us all, and no less for her seven grandchildren, who she possibly loved more than us. They were lucky to meet her and she them. RIP Frances, 1948-2021).

Fresh Plaster

The smell of fresh plaster,

the seamless poured floor;

the swallows from the rafters

flying in and out the door.

The buildings now fulfilling,

a producing little brood.

Already there are gardens,

already there is food.

Already on these acres

there's gravel and there's lawn.

Only early days,

and the fresh plaster smell is gone.

(We waited through a lot of lockdowns to visit our friends at their new home. It was a series of ruins when we saw it in 2019, with our friends living in a mobile home on site. Fast-forward to July 2021 and we thought we'd arrived at the wrong house).

All The Same

Flatbed trailers clatter by,

silage through brambled ditch.

We watch out and identify

the haylage and the baleage.

A four-hour call of everything,

a fifteen-year rectifier.

Lola still threatening

the big move back to Glanmire.

All the time, all that changed

all the same, just re-arranged.

Silk Cut Purple stolen days

tossed and stored, just like the hay.

A Plea To The Cat

To be fair to the robin chicks,

the sparrows and the rabbit kits,

to the naked newborn crying shrewlets,

you were once a little kitten,

who took all the chances given

by visit upon visit to the vet.

Shots of antibiotics,

hoping and finger crossing,

care like you had never known.

Prescription narcotics

at costs verging on chronic,

so you might give this life a go.

Spare a thought for the unwary,

you are a cat who grew up safely,

favoured by some overloaded dice. 

Try to live life fairly,

pick on creatures not still babies.

But, all bets are off in terms of rats and mice.

The Jay

After so many local strolls,
only so many local ways,

the children had given up hope

of stumbling on anything rare.

Then all on one path

a red squirrel, a crossbill,

and a caroling blackcap

thrilling in tuneful trills.

The best of the show

at the end of the day

was the painted crow,

the colourful jay.